Day 4 by Matthew
My feelings intensify as each new day begins. This is of course for a variety of reasons. Above all, tomorrow I will begin to father a child I have never met. She may not want to meet me, hold my hand, leave with me away from her caretaker. She may even hate me at first. But I am eager to know her, provide for her, and love her through the sadness and pain.
Today I traveled with George on a bullet train to Eden’s home city. Shijiazhuang. Yes, I too mispronounce it. I practiced on the train ride though, going 180 miles per hour. I also practiced, “I love you,” “You are safe,” “I am your papa.”
I saw little mittens for girls with bunnies and other indiscernible cute creatures. I thought of her tomorrow. Tomorrow! What a change for her and I will take place tomorrow. Maybe I can go with her to let her pick out her first gift from me. Maybe those bunny mittens. Everything makes me think of her. As I type those words, I can hear Jesus say the same to me in my heart. “Everything makes me think of you, child.”
Little girl, here is a verse for you, and for all our hearts:
“ I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you.“ -John 14:18
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